Holiday mood still lingers... even after a week long break, especially I've just tendered my resignation early this month.
Yes, I've found a new job and although there are many thoughts on other issues before I decided to sign for a new job but this time my mind is set, no more daydreaming! because I've got into the industry I always longed for.
It's gotta be hard down the road but I will persevere and work hard in my new job, and that will be one of my new resolution of the year 2012. :)
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Thursday, June 9, 2011
Friendship Betrayal - The Pacrel of Life
There was many times, I tried to wrote this experience of mine but I ended up not posting it up but finally I did so here goes...
In friendship especially when it comes to a stage we called ourselves Best Friends Forever, for short BFF, guess that everyone knows what it means which need no explanation.
Before that I thought nothing about it, expect I naviely believe is just a simple and innocent friendship but one incident made me have second thoughts even until now. Still, in that little space in my heart I believe there is but is all about luck and fate.
Okay, so anyways....
I believe this friendship last about less than two years before we split into different classes before the start of secondary three. Seriously, I never able to remember how I actually met her in the same class, at some point where we get to know each other for a while we randomly agreed become Best Friends Forever. I guess maybe we both never had one before.
How weird is it that two different people can be best friends with almost nothing in common. At that time, I didn't know what it means to be BFF. It started off like any normal friendship study and have fun together, sometimes chitchat on the phone at night and giving support to each other, etc.
Everything seen to turn out fine but things started to took a turn.
All I can remember it started off with my lost wallet, it was found by her. In actual fact, I was navie to believe her that she found it in a terrible condition, my student card cut into two, allowance gone and wallet vandalize with pen marks.
After that, it seen like being with her is almost like living hell, many times she hurt my feelings but yet I was foolishly being very forgiving everytime she apologize to what she did to me. All I can say that's my nature of being kind and soft hearted but at the same time I feel this is one of disadvantages in a reality, thankfully I was lucky enough to get by all these years.
Then came the final straw, she stole my wallet again and at that time it was unknown to me that day I rode the bus home with borrowed money and my Mum give me a serious scolding for being careless for that.
Sometime after, my form teacher of my secondary two called me in, I even thought I must have done something wrong being called in like that and also she was my favorite form and art teacher of that year. I was so scared that my face almost turn white!
The truth came to light that shone on my doubtful my mind, my wallet... was in the school pond and was picked by someone. At that point of time, everything goes so fast, she told me that it was my so-called BFF admitted to the crime of stealing. After that my parents were called in and I was nag by my parents about the trouble that was created and advice me to stay away from her. The aftermath made me realized that this friendship between me and her is already over.
Not long after the incident, we talked again but this time is different, we decided for our best interest, we will remain just friends, yet half of my feelings for her is that I can't completely forgive her of all she have done and the first time of that friendship close to two years I felt relieved that it came to an end
Everything went back to square one, from just friends to hi & bye friends to schoolmates and finally when we were graduated from secondary school, we completely lost contact. The last time I heard from her was that she was studying in another ITE and was holding a part-time job.
I must be lying if I say I was not hurt in the ending process but suprisingly from there on, I gained more friends than before, classmates and schoolmates I knew and talked with supported me (I guessed in a different way).
This hard lesson have taught me many things.
BFF...
Well, it is possible to have one.
To put it bluntly, I will not believe such a thing as BFF because I know people will change at some point and will not want meeting you up anymore, even if you tried your best to be friends with that certain person I can say when it's time to let it go, just let it go and move on. And when someone wants to be friends with you just to make use of you and made the hell out of you, it is best not to be friends with that kind of person anymore because it is no point to change that person unless he or she decide to change himself or herself.
To me, real friends will only reveal themselves when we truly need help or comfort and to be there with you all the way.
There goes the saying "never say never", if I ever really have one BFF, I'll surely not nominate this person as my BFF in much haste as I know to know someone takes a long time to come. But whether or not to have a BFF is not important to me anymore, what's important is that life will still have to go on and live with a strong will.
We call it a pacrel of life, and this is one of it that I've been through.
If she ever came across my blog or facebook. I really hope that she is doing well, and if she ever leave a massage behind I would say "Hi" to her and told her I've already put that past behind me and moved on to a happier life. I'm glad that we have no hard feelings in the end.
Oh wait, she indirectly taught me a very fine lesson which is....... to be careful of my belongings! Thanks.
In friendship especially when it comes to a stage we called ourselves Best Friends Forever, for short BFF, guess that everyone knows what it means which need no explanation.
Before that I thought nothing about it, expect I naviely believe is just a simple and innocent friendship but one incident made me have second thoughts even until now. Still, in that little space in my heart I believe there is but is all about luck and fate.
Okay, so anyways....
I believe this friendship last about less than two years before we split into different classes before the start of secondary three. Seriously, I never able to remember how I actually met her in the same class, at some point where we get to know each other for a while we randomly agreed become Best Friends Forever. I guess maybe we both never had one before.
How weird is it that two different people can be best friends with almost nothing in common. At that time, I didn't know what it means to be BFF. It started off like any normal friendship study and have fun together, sometimes chitchat on the phone at night and giving support to each other, etc.
Everything seen to turn out fine but things started to took a turn.
All I can remember it started off with my lost wallet, it was found by her. In actual fact, I was navie to believe her that she found it in a terrible condition, my student card cut into two, allowance gone and wallet vandalize with pen marks.
After that, it seen like being with her is almost like living hell, many times she hurt my feelings but yet I was foolishly being very forgiving everytime she apologize to what she did to me. All I can say that's my nature of being kind and soft hearted but at the same time I feel this is one of disadvantages in a reality, thankfully I was lucky enough to get by all these years.
Then came the final straw, she stole my wallet again and at that time it was unknown to me that day I rode the bus home with borrowed money and my Mum give me a serious scolding for being careless for that.
Sometime after, my form teacher of my secondary two called me in, I even thought I must have done something wrong being called in like that and also she was my favorite form and art teacher of that year. I was so scared that my face almost turn white!
The truth came to light that shone on my doubtful my mind, my wallet... was in the school pond and was picked by someone. At that point of time, everything goes so fast, she told me that it was my so-called BFF admitted to the crime of stealing. After that my parents were called in and I was nag by my parents about the trouble that was created and advice me to stay away from her. The aftermath made me realized that this friendship between me and her is already over.
Not long after the incident, we talked again but this time is different, we decided for our best interest, we will remain just friends, yet half of my feelings for her is that I can't completely forgive her of all she have done and the first time of that friendship close to two years I felt relieved that it came to an end
Everything went back to square one, from just friends to hi & bye friends to schoolmates and finally when we were graduated from secondary school, we completely lost contact. The last time I heard from her was that she was studying in another ITE and was holding a part-time job.
I must be lying if I say I was not hurt in the ending process but suprisingly from there on, I gained more friends than before, classmates and schoolmates I knew and talked with supported me (I guessed in a different way).
This hard lesson have taught me many things.
BFF...
Well, it is possible to have one.
To put it bluntly, I will not believe such a thing as BFF because I know people will change at some point and will not want meeting you up anymore, even if you tried your best to be friends with that certain person I can say when it's time to let it go, just let it go and move on. And when someone wants to be friends with you just to make use of you and made the hell out of you, it is best not to be friends with that kind of person anymore because it is no point to change that person unless he or she decide to change himself or herself.
To me, real friends will only reveal themselves when we truly need help or comfort and to be there with you all the way.
There goes the saying "never say never", if I ever really have one BFF, I'll surely not nominate this person as my BFF in much haste as I know to know someone takes a long time to come. But whether or not to have a BFF is not important to me anymore, what's important is that life will still have to go on and live with a strong will.
We call it a pacrel of life, and this is one of it that I've been through.
If she ever came across my blog or facebook. I really hope that she is doing well, and if she ever leave a massage behind I would say "Hi" to her and told her I've already put that past behind me and moved on to a happier life. I'm glad that we have no hard feelings in the end.
Oh wait, she indirectly taught me a very fine lesson which is....... to be careful of my belongings! Thanks.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Looking Back at 2010
I know I should have wrote this post since last year but anyways I would like to start off whatever things I've left half done.
Went to Singapore's Universal Studios in Sentosa Island.
Our first experiences of preparing BBQ food and other stuff for BBQ gathering of SLEA, I even remember that Dear and I were complaining never to do it again and I even complained about getting wet in the rain got told off by YS!
Although, it didn't start off well but ends well. It's quite a exhausting preparation I must say but strangely enough we even want to do it again.
The end of my 1 year Part-time Course, Specialist Diploma in Digital Media Creation (SDMC). I'm very glad to have taken the course because it is what I'm really interested in.
Finally and officially, kick start my practical driving lesson after taken BTT in 2009, hopefully I would be able to finish in early 2011.
First SDMC gathering with good food and chit chat.
My first flight on the plane to Hong Kong in Nov 2010, went to must-go places like Hong Kong Disneyland, Ocean Park, Ladies Market etc.
Got a proposal from the love of my life! Although Dear was way too shy to kneel down in front of so many people at Victoria Peak (he decided to kneel down in a more private place, our hotel room of course.) but I really appreciate of the gifts and flowers including the ring he gave me.
Before I warp up, year 2010 was definitely an exciting year for me. Hopefully, this year 2011 would be even better and more exciting! =)
Went to Singapore's Universal Studios in Sentosa Island.
Our first experiences of preparing BBQ food and other stuff for BBQ gathering of SLEA, I even remember that Dear and I were complaining never to do it again and I even complained about getting wet in the rain got told off by YS!
Although, it didn't start off well but ends well. It's quite a exhausting preparation I must say but strangely enough we even want to do it again.
The end of my 1 year Part-time Course, Specialist Diploma in Digital Media Creation (SDMC). I'm very glad to have taken the course because it is what I'm really interested in.
Finally and officially, kick start my practical driving lesson after taken BTT in 2009, hopefully I would be able to finish in early 2011.
First SDMC gathering with good food and chit chat.
My first flight on the plane to Hong Kong in Nov 2010, went to must-go places like Hong Kong Disneyland, Ocean Park, Ladies Market etc.
Got a proposal from the love of my life! Although Dear was way too shy to kneel down in front of so many people at Victoria Peak (he decided to kneel down in a more private place, our hotel room of course.) but I really appreciate of the gifts and flowers including the ring he gave me.
Before I warp up, year 2010 was definitely an exciting year for me. Hopefully, this year 2011 would be even better and more exciting! =)
Sunday, October 31, 2010
My Very own Hoya Kerrii
This is my new plant Hoya Kerrii aka Sweet Heart Plant ordered via a friend from ToyOutPost.
Beach themed decoration on the soil.
Leaves about to grow out.
My Dear thought I was crazy enough to buy such a expansive plant but when I look at my friend's photos of her Hoya Kerrii, I just can't resists to buy one.
Oh well, that is one of my impulse spending once in a while. >.<
Beach themed decoration on the soil.
Leaves about to grow out.
My Dear thought I was crazy enough to buy such a expansive plant but when I look at my friend's photos of her Hoya Kerrii, I just can't resists to buy one.
Oh well, that is one of my impulse spending once in a while. >.<
Friday, October 15, 2010
There Goes That One Year
I know I haven't been properly blogging for quite sometime now (expect for the last ranting post), even after I have finished my part-time studies for now.
After that one year of digital media course, I feel that I am indeed glad and happy that I made it through for the course I like so long, make a new friend along the way is a bonus to me too! At least along the process, I already know what I want to do next, instead of waltzing my way aimlessly to the future.
For now, I'm continuing my driving lessons which I took my BTT and stop there since last year, looking for a new job and excising three times per week for the sake of that special day if you know what I'm talking about, the bells are ringing. :)
By the way, I'm off to watch One Piece Episode. hehe...
After that one year of digital media course, I feel that I am indeed glad and happy that I made it through for the course I like so long, make a new friend along the way is a bonus to me too! At least along the process, I already know what I want to do next, instead of waltzing my way aimlessly to the future.
For now, I'm continuing my driving lessons which I took my BTT and stop there since last year, looking for a new job and excising three times per week for the sake of that special day if you know what I'm talking about, the bells are ringing. :)
By the way, I'm off to watch One Piece Episode. hehe...
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Mood Ruin
I'm totally not in the best of mood. Work ruin my mood!!
This is just unfair while working people read emails related to work at working hours. I read emails related to work after working hours because I have no Internet to access to read during work.
My job sucks like hell, no proper training from the start lead to now I have to handle all that SHIT to make it more worst I have not much work experiences to handle those worst situations. Ya, blame on me still in experiences.
It is not that I'm lazy and did not want to learn, in actual fact I did learn but it just that this didn't actually work out for me. I know I made mistakes but like everyone said learn from the mistakes, but yet I couldn't seen to get this around instead I feel worst.
To suppress my feelings at work, I practically tried not to care too much at work which these already goes on to nearly a year, no in fact two years.
People think I work fine but I am not what they think I am doing. Getting pushed around to do this and that which is not the first time. People think work is like that but what the HELL, nobody likes to work in a job they hate.
If is wasn't for the sake of taking the money home, I wouldn't be here in the first place and struggle. Sorry, I have to let this out on the blog but...
I had enough with all the f**king SHIT, totally don't have the heart to work in this job at all!!!
This is just unfair while working people read emails related to work at working hours. I read emails related to work after working hours because I have no Internet to access to read during work.
My job sucks like hell, no proper training from the start lead to now I have to handle all that SHIT to make it more worst I have not much work experiences to handle those worst situations. Ya, blame on me still in experiences.
It is not that I'm lazy and did not want to learn, in actual fact I did learn but it just that this didn't actually work out for me. I know I made mistakes but like everyone said learn from the mistakes, but yet I couldn't seen to get this around instead I feel worst.
To suppress my feelings at work, I practically tried not to care too much at work which these already goes on to nearly a year, no in fact two years.
People think I work fine but I am not what they think I am doing. Getting pushed around to do this and that which is not the first time. People think work is like that but what the HELL, nobody likes to work in a job they hate.
If is wasn't for the sake of taking the money home, I wouldn't be here in the first place and struggle. Sorry, I have to let this out on the blog but...
I had enough with all the f**king SHIT, totally don't have the heart to work in this job at all!!!
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